Finishing Well

As I have been processing my father’s recent death.  I have been noticing that people seem to be a little shocked that I am doing so well with it.  I feel like people are expecting me to be all depressed and what not. I admit that I am sad that he is gone and I will be for a long time but I don’t think that has to dominate my life.

Dad finished life well. Until he got sick, and even after he got sick, he was a servant.  Everything he did was to show God’s love to other people. He didn’t let his health dictate his service.  It was great to hear about the things he was involved with that he was too humble to share. The pastor told a story about Dad picking up all of the salt and pepper shakers after the men’s weekly breakfast meetings he went to. He could hardly walk after his first brain surgery and had to use a cane. He still wanted to serve. After he got sick, he was unable to go to the prison to minister to the men who were locked up. He missed this terribly. He loved to share about God’s grace and mercy with these guys who had made some bad choices in life and show them how much God loved them despite their circumstances.  He missed going to the Frankie home to lead worship in their chapel services for the elderly that were residents there.  While I was in South Carolina, I was going through his computer, his iTunes was about 90% sermons on the gospels and about 10% music. One of the few songs was “I can only imagine” by Mercy Me. Besides listening to The Word, he spent time dreaming about Heaven.  I believe that is why he was so peaceful the last two weeks he was alive.  He wasn’t taking any pain medication and rarely showed any discomfort. Mom kept saying, “He must be dreaming of Heaven.”

I hope that I can learn to be as he was; passionate about the things of God, devoted to his family, faithful, funny, humble and an all around great man.

God Speed Dad!


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  1. 1

    i know this is a difficult time for you… glad to see you’re choosing to learn from your dad’s life. god bless.

  2. 2

    Bruce said,

    this is really powerful Ed – thanks for sharing this

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